This is really starting to take its toll.
I’ve mentioned previously, my daughter is a night owl. Often she isn’t asleep until 1:00 or 2:00 a.m. Rare is the night she’s asleep before midnight.
Bedtime is a struggle and it gets me keyed up. By the time I’m ready to fall asleep, Jake (the 10 month-old) is up to nurse. I’m clearly not getting enough solids in him because he’s up way too much to nurse, in my foolhardy opinion. But these days he’s only mildly interested in baby food, preferring foods he can feed himself. But those end up more on him than in him. And the cycle continues.
So, I’m up with him, as I’ve said, somewhere between two and a hundred times a night. And then they are both ready for the day around 11:00 a.m., which is late enough for me to get a fair night’s sleep usually, but not nearly enough to feel well-rested, especially since Jake’s up so often.
I probably really need to just yank Lane out of bed at 8:00 a.m. a couple mornings in a row and get her shifted to a different schedule. I just so do not have the willpower to get myself up to do it… and the cycle continues. I really shouldn’t have the audacity to bitch about it when I could probably fix it with a little effort (and a lot of coffee).
Regardless, I’m tired.