I’m getting off my butt. I had been sorely lacking in the exercise department for most of the winter. Our house came with an older-model-but-pretty-nice treadmill, and we finally got it set up a few months ago… and there it sat. I think I used it once, my brother used it a few more times, and then it just kept on observing us from a corner of our family room.
I’ve got stuff coming up — I’m going to be shooting three weddings in the next three months and would like to have the stamina to do it. We’re going to Aruba again next April, and I would love not to be embarrassed for myself in a bathing suit. I’m generally level-headed enough to only care a tiny bit about what I look like in a bathing suit — mostly it is what it is, and while it’s been a long time since I’ve even been a tiny bit pleased about my appearance naked or sparsely clothed, I don’t have huge hangups about it. I won’t NOT go swimming because I don’t like how I look, you know? But mostly, I just want to be and stay healthy.
This week I’ve been good about getting the lead out. I used the treadmill in the morning three of the last four mornings. Monday, I just walked for a half hour. Tuesday I did some jogging too. Wednesday I skipped, and it honestly affected me negatively the whole day. I really liked how I felt Monday and Tuesday, and then Wednesday I just felt off. If I can keep myself in the habit of going to bed a bit earlier so I can get up and get on the treadmill, I think it’s going to be a very positive thing.
I’m also watching what I put in my mouth. I had a bit of an epiphany not too long ago about my eating habits. I found myself allowing myself to snack whenever I wanted because — well, not because I deserved to have the snack — that’s not quite the mindset, but it’s close. I think it’s more like I felt like I was denying myself something I wanted if I tried to steer clear. Then the blatantly obvious epiphany happened — maybe I was being permissive with myself in the now, but at what cost? What was I denying myself down the road? Smaller clothes sizes and the escape from my current purgatory of being not quite a plus size, but not quite a misses? More energy? Better health? How many healthy years of living and enjoying my kids and grandkids?
[NOTE: This post was interrupted at this point by the need to clean up an entire bottle of pancake syrup that Frank left on the coffee table — can the man PLEASE just leave condiment bottles in the kitchen??!? The rest of us seem perfectly content with adding relevant accoutrements before bringing our plates into the dining room or (occasionally) the living room to eat. I was typing the post and Frank left the room without putting the syrup away, and I didn’t realize it was there… and Jake emptied the contents of the 3/4 full bottle on the coffee table and carpet. Yay fun. Thank goodness we have a Hoover SpinScrub carpet cleaner and I cannot begin to rave about its complete awesomeness.]
Anyway — so about the snacking. With a better mindset I’ve been able to cut it out quite a bit, and with being more active I’m less inclined to eat anyways.
I can’t say with any certainty how well this will all stick — but it feels a bit different this time.